I'm curious

I think I was set up for a blind date.

Really?

Don't you hate blind dates?

I guess but you'll never know, right?

Exactly.

You'll never know what kind of disaster awaits you, right?

Especially, if you haven't seen the person.

Not even a photo.

You imagine things.

Different things enter your mind.

What do you imagine about this girl?

You want to know?

I'm curious.

Headache and sleepy

Headache. Sleepy. Tired. Bored. All in one. I'm really need to focus. But how? Too many numbers in my head. Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know the reason. Today and yesterday class sure killing me. I'm a dead.

Application in Mathematics give me headache. Totally headache. Suddenly, my hand write "HEADACHE" in a piece of paper. Nothing. Empty. Zero. Out of blue. Really need myself back. Even though the binary number is each but this is madness. Too complex.

Just a dream

I don't know how our souls meet each other.

If it's true or not.

Who knows.

What I know you made me happy.

You stayed with me when I was lost.

Even for just a dream.

I hope you do too.

I hope you're happy wherever you are.

Thank you for helping me go back.

I hope I was able to do it for you too.

If only I woke up earlier.

Election of YDP

Last Monday our college did a simple manifesto to be next YDP. 5 candidates all together. Each of them had been given a change to deliver their speech. Most of them were confident with themselves. Hope they can capture other students heart.

I don't know who will I vote. My vote is a secret. Good luck for all candidates. All the best. For sure, the winner will catch the big prize, YDP post. Just wait and see. Thursday will be judgement day.Who will our next YDP?

Morning Talk

Morning. It's too early to wake up. But I don't know why my eyes quickly responded to the alarm. I did wake up at 4.15 in the morning. I got to settle my task. Current issues. That is "Pendemokrasian Pendidikan" in Malay.

Mostly about school and college. This and that. But some of them really helps the future generation. Some of them just a waste. Got computer or laptop but no electricity. Quite good combination. Other than that, parents forgot the importance of education in their life. With education, life style can be change.

Guess my knowledge just like a drop of water in empty bowl. Need to discover more by reading. Right now, I hate to read. Kind of crazy things. Hey, I also went for jog. Just a few round. That's more than enough.

It's 6.00 a.m. Oh, my god. I need to iron my cloth first. I must do it faster because someone will use the iron later. I guess I will stop here for now. Got to go.

Giant burger

Last night I did eat something. Something that big.  Big enough to make me scared. It's a burger. Giant burger stall at Tanjung Aru Plaza. Burger with black pepper sauce. Nice to see nice eat.

We did order 2 burgers. Chicken and Mutton. But you need to wait for a long time because the stall were busy with other costumer orders. Famous I think. As long as we can eat. It's fine with me. After taking some times, my stomach were full. Can't be stuffed anymore.

Next time we will go again. Want to follow us? I just want to enjoy my precious moment in college. After this, there is no college life. Only school life.

Orientation week

It's a long time I didn't post anything. One week I think. Busy with orientation week with new juniors. English and Maths. Different background. Different demand. Human still a human. Nothing change. One week but makes me exhausted. Morning I will attended a class as usual. But in the afternoon, I did help my friends at hall.

 

Boy's hostel

There is a lot of problem went we did a registration for hostel. Common problem. Room. Some of the senior students in this college exchange their room without permission. That's a bad attitude. Are they showing a good example to the juniors?

Pizza hut...

Even though busy with the registration, but pizza makes us happy again. Starving. Thanks to our supervisor. Next time, threat us again. I really gonna miss this moment. This is the last for me to handle an orientation week.

Facilitator

Smile always. Even though I'm one of facilitator, I didn't scolded the juniors. I don't know why. Childish sometimes. Taking a candid pictures. I like. Keep smiling to warm they heart.

Now, there free from orientation week. Welcome to Gaya. That's the best phrases for them. Hope they can enjoy their life in here. All the best.

Blocked

Here are 10 websites to be blocked by the SKMM. Malaysian government blocked the site for violating the copyright act 1987.

1. Http: / / www.warez-bb.org

2. Http: / / www.thepiratedbay.org

3. Http: / / www.movie2k.to

4. Http: / / www.megavideo.com

5. Http: / / www.putlocker.com

6. Http: / / www.depositfiles.com

7. Http: / / www.duckload.com

8. Http: / / www.fileserve.com

9. Http: / / www.filestube.com

10. Http: / / www.megaupload.com

P/S: Some of the websites were blocked among my favorites.

Mount Kinabalu

I'm back with muscle ache and exhausted for trying to conquer the Mount Kinabalu. But I'm sorry for my body because I can't manage to conquer the mount. It's really hard for me. I think that I need proper training.

But I'm happy because my friends were very supportive even though I'm far behind their still waiting for me. Encourage me. It's been a long time. More than that I think. I proud to myself because I manage to reach Laban Rata.

This is our banner. Simple.

Enum versus Numb

The real lyrics should be like this. Just for fun. It's kind of funny when listening to it. Let's enjoy this video clip. Taken from Youtube. Thanks Youtube.

Linkin Park - Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless lost under the surface

I don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?

Holding too tightly afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too

But I know you were just like me

With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I'm that old?

I'm that old? I keep wondering sometimes. Maybe they just want to be polite. I don't know. Even though by looking differences in our age, he/she should call me "Adik". Getting more and more confuse. I was on my way back to my house. It's happen at Maybank at Alamesra. Someone said: "Broadband bang.." Quite shock because the man was older than me. *Blank* for awhile. 

Food court usually using "Abang" "Kakak"

It's keeps happen went we were eating at food court. Any food court, I think. Crowded. Also, fighting for costumer. Sometimes bad mouthing others shop. Is it a good way to get earnings? Think about it.

Memory

Cats the musical - Memory


Daylight
See the dew on the sunflower
And a rose that is fading
Roses whither away
Like the sunflower
I yearn to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day . . .

Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Every streetlamp
Seems to beat a fatalistic warning
Someone mutters
And the streetlamp gutters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I musn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me
You'll understand what happiness is

Look
A new day has begun

Rain's drop

It's been a long time not playing with the rain. Totally soak and nice. I like it. But suddenly I body feel so cold and I think that I will be sick soon.

Why I like raining time? Only one think can be related. That is sleeping. But right now I'm too busy to have a sleep in afternoon. I need to spend some time with children. Teach them to be better person. Not only that, sleeping make me sleepless at night. I can't have my sleep. Too much sleep I think.

Right now, with the rain outside, I enjoyed my meal that fried rice and a cup of milo. It was nice. Just simple. But it keeps your stomach full. More important than important. But the cloud still crying. When will it stop? Nobody know. The breeze from outside makes me feel better.



Credit to Raindrops for this lovely photo.

Tamu of Tuaran

 

Hey, you know what I did wake up early and went to the market. Today got Tamu. I want to buy something especially glove and snow cap. Before that, I did took my breakfast. Noodles and tofu.

 

Tofu: One Ringgit each. (Took 2 for breakfast)

Noodles: One Ringgit per plate (1 plate for me)

After eating my breakfast. I went to the market. Looking for mountain expedition equipment. I did found snow cap that only cost me 5 ringgits and the glove cost me for 2 ringgits. All together will be 7 ringgits. I just want to lower the cost.

As usual, Tuaran's market crowded with people. O

pen every Sunday from 6 am until 2 pm. We can get many things in tamu. Sometimes you can't fine at other places.

Vegetable, seafood, fruits and many more.

Photo Credits: ez-photo, noodles & tofu.

Picture of noodles and tofu just decoration purpose.

I never thought

Isn't there someone..
I can be with?
Isn't there someone..
I can always call on?
I want..
to fall in love.
It's so lonely..
here, now.
I wonder when..
these tears will stop falling.
I wonder when..
life will be happy again.
I never thought..
it would be this difficult.

More than enough

Wow. It's a new record. I had been sleeping whole day. Most of time was sleeping. Like I don't have anything to do. Gosh, it's sound crazy but it's happen. Right now. Just wake up. Directly to the laptop.

Credit to: Health Watch

Go ahead, just sleep.Those who get fewer than six hours of sleep on a regular basis are more likely to die earlier, research shows. But in my situation it is more than enough. 8.00 am in the morning already wake up then taking my bath, online and eat. Then, back to sleep until 4.30 pm. It's crazy things to do.

Three movies One day

Morning guys. It's really awesome last night. You know why? Three movies in a row. Movie combo. Only three of us went to the cinema. Some of my friends kind of busy with their own stuff. Each of us want to watch different movie. So, as the conclusion we watch all of them together. That's why we need to watch three movies.

First movie, Kung Fu Panda 2. It's a great movie. Don't miss it. Really enjoy it until the end of the movie. I guess that Kung Fu Panda 3 will come out later because at the end of movie there is Po's father. Yeah. So excited.

KL Gangster will be our second movie. It's a good movie also. There is Zizan. Quite entertaining. Zizan can't be a serious person. Even though he's trying to be serious but really funny. 

The third and the last movie is X-men: First class. It's my favorite movie. From here we can't know how the x-men form. How Magneto and Prof. X become enemy even though they are friend from the beginning.

Overall, I did enjoy watching all of it. No rude words coming from my mouth. Yeah. I did have fun.  Next time, we will try to take 4 movies. Want to try? But I already did it before. Maybe other people wondering.

Quotes to Keep You Going

“Life is either a daring adventure, or it is nothing.”

~ Helen Keller


“Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.”

~ Albert Einstein


“Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right.”

~ Henry Ford


“When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bonds: Your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction, and you find yourself in a new, great, and wonderful world. Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive, and you discover yourself to be a greater person by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be.”

~ Patanjali – the author of Yoga Sutra


“I think I can, I think I can.”

~ The Little Engine That Could


“I know for sure that what we dwell on is who we become.”

~ Oprah Winfrey


“The big secret in life is that there is no big secret. Whatever your goal, you can get there if you’re willing to work.”

~ Oprah Winfrey


“Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life.”

~ Leo Buscaglia


“The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart.”

~ Helen Keller”


“I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.”

~ Roy Croft


A friend is a gift you give yourself.

~ Robert Louis Stevenson


“Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve.”

~ Napoleon Hill


“People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily.”

~ Zig Ziglar


“I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”

~ Michael Jordan


“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.”

~ Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.


Dance as though no one is watching you.
Love as though you have never been hurt before.
Sing as though no one can hear you.
Live as though heaven is on earth.

~Souza

A bowl of porridge

Can someone give me a little of food? I'm starving. Really starving. Then I got some simple minded idea. Porridge. Suddenly pop-up from my mind. Yeah. Because it is simple and quick. Let's go to the kitchen. What do we have there?

 Dried prawns and rice

1/2 cup dried prawns (remove shell)
1 cup rice

4 cups water
1 teaspoon sesame seed oil per serving
white pepper powder (to taste)
light soya sauce (to taste)

First of all we need to wash dried shrimps/prawns and rice . Then mixed both ingredients into automatic rice cooker and add some water. Turn off the cooker when the porridge begins to bubble over. Allow the porridge to simmer in the cooker for another ten minutes. After that you can add sesame oil, pepper and light soya sauce to taste.

 Ready to be eaten

This pain can't be matched

Whatever she does,
I have to leave her.
I love her
And this pain can't be matched
She's the only one who makes me happy.
She's my air.
My land.
My fire.

Checkmate!

Okay. I got a new statement from my pupil. I think it's acceptable. Because I know myself better than others. Finally that statement come out from my pupil. Thanks for the statement Budin. You make me realize who I am. "first time cigu nda men game". Checkmate. You hit that particular spot.

I guess to much game till even my own pupils noticed. I hope they will not follow my footsteps.  Game maniac. Yeah! It's kind of funny. Please. Someone help me. Get rid of this addictiveness. Nah.. Nobody can help me. It's from myself. I don't know how to abandon this habit of mine.

Frankly, I missed them that much. How much? Cannot be describe. Their laugh. Act. Attitude. Smile. Cry. I miss that. Someday we will meet again. Someday..

A cup of Coconut Hot Chocolate

A cup of Hot Chocolate and Cream Crackers for breakfast. As simple as my life. Only that I can found at my kitchen right now. As long as I can take my breakfast, it's fine with me. Usually I would like to take heavier breakfast such as rice and noodles. Lazy to cook it. Even though I now how to cook (simple meal only).

A product from Cadbury

Here is the recipe I took and follow…

• About 4 teaspoons Cadbury’s hot chocolate powder (no extra sugar)
• One spoon coffee creamer
• About 50ml coconut milk (canned)
• And lastly, hot water to fill up the cup

Let's enjoy our breakfast and brighten your day. Still got work to do. And planning to go One Borneo. Hopefully there is no rain. Mr. Sun please shine for me. Start your day with a smile.

Let's sleep.. sleep.. sleep

It's already night. I'm so tired. Sleepy. Also confused. I don't know why but most likely that I don't take my nap. My mind keep saying "Let's sleep.. sleep.. sleep".  But my hand still itchy to write on something.

Heaven trims our lamps while we sleep.

Hey. It's still raining outside. Raining cat and dog. Hopefully tomorrow Mr. Sun comes out. I want to go to 1 Borneo. I need to buy some of my equipment. I'm regret that I don't like to drive a car.

For after all, the best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain.

Now, let's sleep. Hope that everything goes as planned. Even though there is obstacle I will against no matter what it takes.

My Prayer

As long as I remember the words,

My prayers for your happiness are in the evening sky,

and mine as well.

You've shown me your crying and smiling face.

With only that, I'm happy.

Because it causes pain...

Joys and sorrows...

Note:  Whether happy or not, just accept the facts. It's cycle of life.

Dear dad

This is my dream, remember?
New environment, new beginning, everything was new..
but some things never changed.

Today, like my father, I had everything.
A loving family.
Good friends.
And most, importantly, My Dad.

I think he feels proud when he looks at me.
My dad said that, if I used my brain correctly..
then my life would be happy..
He was right.

Love you, Dad.
Thanks for everything.

Never Play With The Feelings

Shakespeare.....
"Never Play With The Feelings Of Others
Because You May Win The Game
But The Risk Is That You Will Surely Lose
The Person For A Life Time".

Napoleon........
"The world suffers a lot. Not because of
the violence of bad people,
But because of the silence of good people!"

Einstein.........
"I am thankful to all those who said NO to me
Its because of them I did it myself.."

Abraham Lincoln.........
"If friendship is your weakest point then
you are the strongest person
in the world"

Shakespeare..........
"Laughing Faces Do Not Mean That There Is
Absence Of Sorrow!
But It Means That They Have The Ability To
Deal With It".

William Arthur.........
"Opportunities Are Like Sunrises, If You
Wait Too Long You Can Miss Them".

Hitler.....
"When You Are In The Light, Everything
Follows You,
But When You Enter Into The Dark, Even
Your Own Shadow Doesn't Follow You."

Shakespeare.............
"Coin Always Makes Sound But The Currency
Notes Are Always Silent. So When Your Value Increases
Keep Yourself Calm and Silent"

Smiles

 

Remember this,

“You haven't lost your smile at all, it's right under your nose. You just forgot it was there.”

 Give to someone, you will get back..

“If you see a friend without a smile; give him one of yours.”

Think about this..

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.”

 Not to forget that..

“Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.”

 Smile indeed..

“If someone is too tired to give you a smile, leave one of your own, because no one needs a smile as much as those who have none to give”

Quest of Mount Kinabalu

Oh my God. Next week I will be climbing Mount Kinabalu but all of the equipment that I need still not ready yet. What I'm thinking right now is just buy the bundle things. So that I can save a lot of money. Once in a blue moon. It's not every year you will climb mountain.

Moreover, I don't have any proper training. Busy with my schedule of life. Hopefully I can reach it without any obstacle. May God bless us all. I'm off. Too the bundle shop. Suggestion from the net. Some of those are needed but better follow the suggestion. Safety first. No specialised mountaineering equipment is required. You will, however, need:

Comfortable walking boots that you have worn before.

Warm clothing. Although the weather will be literally tropical at the base of the mountain, it could be cold, windy and raining, or all three, at the top. This means you should take a waterproof and windproof jacket, and a fleece or similar. A pair of gloves and a woolly hat or balaclava could also be handy. If you begin the walk in shorts don't forget to put a pair of trousers in your rucksack.

Sunscreen and a cap. You're in the tropics, after all...

A water bottle. 1.5 litres would be ideal. Take water purification tablets if you normally drink a lot - that way you can fill up from the numerous taps along the route.

A torch, preferably a head torch.

Some chocolate or other high energy food. If you're going with an organised group they will probably give you some sandwiches and fruit, but check before you head off.

Camera and film. There are some fantastic views if it is not misty.

A walking pole or two (preferably telescopic) particularly if you have dodgy knees.

Finally, someone in your group should have a basic mountain first aid kit. The guides may have one - but they may not.

Wish me luck.

I'm cooking

It's lunch time. Simple menu for today. I did cook it for myself. Only my grandmother, grandfather and I left at home. I'm worried to let them alone at home. So, I did sacrificed my Sunday. Hopefully my brother come back early.

What I have for lunch? Like I said earlier. Simple. Fried eggs and fish. Plain rice. Last but not least soy sauce.

 Eggs mixed with onion

Fish

I'm lazy to cook. That's the best I can do if I don't have a mood to cook. Really extra simple. But still can be eaten. As long as my stomach full, I'm happy. That's more important.

Nothing has changed

Were you always this type of person?

You go into hysterics over little things,

But remain calm and objective on the big issues?

You’re too emotionless about this.

It’s not normal.

I was really curious about that.

The day before yesterday, I was going to get peace and cry myself silly.

But the even more peace I got, the better my mood.

I couldn’t muster any tears.

So I even tried thinking really sad thoughts and to get into a mournful mood.

But, when I woke up in the morning I was still fine.

Maybe it’s something like this.

You know, sometimes when you brush against something sharp…

You don’t notice the pain immediately.

Only later, when it starts to bleed and sting, do you realize it.

I think I do find it hard to grasp.

Look… people are laughing and playing…

It’s the same as always.

Nothing has changed.

I still love you…

Anyhow, it feels nice to know that at least you’re concerned about me.

Lonely?

Lonely? No,

how can I be lonely when you are always in my thoughts.

I wake up with you and I sleep with you. I love you!!

but..

Relationships are like glass.

Sometimes it`s better to leave them broken

than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Anyway..

Loving someone is setting them free, letting them go.

For sure,

Happiness are those who dream dreams

and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.

A day of rock

Hello guys. I just want to conclude my schedule for today. It was tiresome. From morning to night. From Tuaran to Kota Kinabalu. It's a silly job or thing to do.

Early in the morning, I need to help my fellow friend at his house for 40 days kenduri. Helping him to arrange the sitting arrangement, serving foods, clean up the mess and lastly rearrange it back to normal. It's food were marvelous. Tom yam Seafood. Butter chicken. Vegetable. Pecal. Not to forget, there is two types of curry, chicken and goat. I can have all accept the goat. Maybe because of the smell or it's too hot to have it as a lunch. Or maybe I don't like GOAT.

Afternoon. After clear all the task, we went to 1 Borneo. Enjoy ourselves by singing. Only 5 of us but still can make havoc. Mostly rock so that we can shout until our voice running out. CRAZY thing to do. Then, having a Big Apple as our consolation prize. Too sweet. I need water.

Night. We all went to Tanjung Aru 2nd Beach. We had our dinner there. All of us taking the same menu that is chicken rice. Simple and fast. MAYBE. But the service at this place was bad. One of my member got his drink after he finish all his food. They want to kill someone I think.

Then we went around Kota Kinabalu before heading back to our final destination. That is home. Home sweet home. Just enjoy our night by driving slowly.  Finally arrived at home and now sitting in front of my laptop.